Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Welcome home, Gilad

A funny thing happened on the way to school yesterday. I was driving along, minding my own business, dodging cars as traffic thickened on the 10. And out of nowhere, taking me completely by surprise, I got very emotional. Tears started welling up in my eyes and I felt a huge wave of something. And it was all because of Gilad Shalit, the IDF soldier who returned to Israel after five years in Hamas captivity.

For the past five years, it was impossible to spend any period of time in Israel without encountering Gilad's presence. He became this national symbol, a mythic creature whose image was emblazoned on countless posters, banners, and pamphlets. His story, his image, and his plight were forced into the minds and memories of native Israelis and tourists alike. The child of Israel, taken from his country while serving it honorably, whose parents and friends wanted him back where he belonged, dead or alive.

As an HUC student living in the center of Jerusalem, Gilad greeted me every day. The path from my favorite coffee shop to campus included a walk by the Prime Minister's compound. As most of the world is aware, for several years Gilad's family lived in a tent adjacent to the compound, a constant reminder to Ohlmert, then Netanyahu, that Gilad was still missing. I often walked by that tent with a feeling of head-shaking bewilderment. He's never going to come home, folks. I thought to myself. Your efforts are, sadly, in vain.

How mistaken was I.

Not only did Gilad return home this week, but he came back alive, and in one piece. Gaunt, frail, and in dire need of sunlight, but alive. He freaking walked out of "enemy" territory, crossed the border, embraced his father, boarded a helicopter, and flew home to be with his family. Forever. Alive.

The fact that he did not return to Israel in a coffin represents a tremendous deal of hope and promise. Why? Because Hamas could have said, screw it. We don't care if he goes back alive or dead. We can do whatever we want with him. We hate Israel, and we hate their soldiers even more. Israel would have accepted Gilad's body dead or alive, and exchanged it for the same 1,000+ prisoners they bartered him for.

That Hamas was willing to work with Israel - using Egypt as a buffer - to release perhaps the most prized possession they have demonstrates in some small way that peace, or at least a pathway to it, is possible. It demonstrates that there is some way to communicate with "the other."

After looking at images like these, it also reminds us that each of us essentially strives for the same raw human needs. To love and be loved. To have families who care about us. To be reunited with mothers and fathers and daughters and sons.

I do not condone or excuse the heinous acts of those who were released from Israeli prisons in exchange for Gilad. The high price of one life is excruciatingly difficult to comprehend. However, this is Israel. These are the stakes with which the country must gamble. This is how Israel must defend itself in order to survive.

Despite what seems like the most lopsided, misguided prisoner exchange in history, as this article by Bradley Burston reminds us, it was the right thing to do. Israel keeps its promise to its citizens and its soldiers.

Yesterday was an historic and meaningful moment in Israel's history. On a very real, raw, personal level, a mother and father were reunited with their beloved son. A twenty-five year old man returned to his native land, to friends and family, and presumably joined Facebook. (According to my Israeli Facebook friend)

On a national level, Gilad's return encompassed many different messages and emotions. On the one hand, the native son returned to his homeland; the mythic creature reunited with his origins. On the other, his return saw the release of over 1,000 perpetrators of terror; people who have played active roles in the deaths of countless victims of violence. It was certainly a moment of bittersweet redemption for those who wanted Gilad back. And it was certainly a moment of tremendous sadness and frustration for all those who lost loved ones.

On an international level, Gilad's return is a reminder of how complicated and tenuous the relationships between Middle East neighbors actually are. It shows the entire world that Israel, for all its faults and flaws, is committed to sanctity of life, even at such a high price.

To many, Gilad Shalit's return home is hard to comprehend. His release is baffling, even offensive. And yet - I don't see it that way. I see it as a tremendous opportunity for a country that I love deeply but struggle with daily. I see it as an emblem of hope and promise for an area of the world so marred by violence and terrorism.

Gilad's return home is complicated - but such is life in Israel. There is no day and no moment without complication, without argument, without wrestling, and those who truly love Israel and have engaged with it whole-heartedly know this all too well.

Kol yisrael areivim zeh ba zeh - all Israel is responsible for one another. These words carry us through our liturgy, our texts, and our holidays, but particularly through relationships with fellow Jews all over the world. We are united as one, in celebration of Gilad and in looking ahead toward our communal future.

L'chayim, to life.

Jaclyn



Monday, October 10, 2011

The Year of Living Jewish is Over

The Year of Living Jewish is over.

Or is it?

A year ago - Rosh Hashanah 5771 - I started this blog as a way to connect further with two entities: my student pulpit down in El Centro, and my own personal Jewish practice. I dabbled in keeping Shabbat, observing Kashrut, going to the mikveh, and reading erudite things. It was all about going deeper into levels of Jewish practice that had absolutely no bearing on me prior to rabbinical school.

Last week, I ate bacon for the first time in one year.

It wasn't anything to blog home about.

A year has passed since I began this little experiment. A full year in which great things and crappy things happened; a year in which I celebrated and mourned with the people I love. At Rosh Hashanah services last week I looked back, as I do every year, on memories both fulfilling and disheartening. I sat in synagogue with my family and contemplated the meaning of life; how fortunate I am. And I thought about how nice and how pleasant it is that I don't only do this act on Rosh Hashanah, or Yom Kippur, but consistently throughout my year: in school, in shul, and even in my car on jam-packed freeways.

Living Jewish, to me, is about far more than the little things I blogged about sporadically throughout the year. Living Jewish is about far more than going to synagogue and thinking about my Jewish identity and connection to God. Living Jewish is about far more than experiencing the rituals of Judaism on a superficial level.

Living Jewish is who you are; it's how you live every day of your life. I knew going into this that I lived a Jewish life and never doubted it. The practices I experimented with this year were all interesting and engaging and worth trying, but they didn't make me more of a Jew by any stretch of the imaJEWnation. While to some these activities may be meaningless, and to others totally rote commonplace daily activities, to me they were a chance to push myself outside the box in which my Jewish identity came into formation.

What did I learn this past year? That this box - whose foundation was the work of those who came long before me, whose walls were created and structured by my parents, and whose insides were decorated, adorned, and attended to by me - is open enough and wide enough to accept all sorts of new influences. It is a box that knows its limits, certainly, but is willing to experiment with different patterns and fabrics.

In short, I really like my box. I have created a box that I myself am comfortable with, that is capable of being altered and changed to reflect the person I am evolving into. And that box was the focus of this blog for one full year.

That evolved state is a permanent state of being for me, and for that reason alone, this Year is not finished. Nor will it ever be. In fact, long after I'm gone, my grandchildren and great grandchildren will, God willing, still be asking themselves the questions that this blog poses. Only, at that point they'll likely be mental-blogging on chips implanted in their brains and sending those blogs through their minds to other people's mental blog chips, thereby eliminating the visual computer. Or something.

This blog will continue, but I'm not yet sure what shape it will take. Time will tell.

For now, I hope that you and everyone you know and love experienced a meaningful, pertinent, relevant, and challenging High Holiday season. I hope it got you not to think about whether or not you're a "good" Jew, but rather - who you are as a person, how you can best serve the community around you, and where Jewish values and ideals are implicated in your every day life.

That's what these Yamim Nora'im - these Days of Awe - are about. They may seem like they are time-bound reflection periods on Jewish identity and practice. But look beyond the surface, and they are a reminder, a check-in, and a push that compels each of us to live Jewish: to live each day better than the one before.

Shana Tova u'metuka -

A good, sweet new year to all.

Jaclyn